Wednesday, June 16, 2010

I haven't felt like it.

I just haven't felt like blogging. First, I was pretty darn depressed for a while. I mean, I went off those additional medications that were, in fact, helping the depression even as they were screwing up everything else. That has lifted. In fact, I'm not taking any meds at all. Flying without a net. Doing okay. It's crazier than being crazy.

Then the computer and Internet access were all jacked up. I just do not have patience for that crap. So, I got used to no computer time. I've been reading.

Summer has been going great, but today was about it. All three kids were crying when swim lessons were over. And I still took them to the library. When Claire stopped in the middle of the parking lot at the library, with a car coming, whining that her legs were "too weak" to keep walking, I felt a small something burst in my brain. That. Is. It. My kids are ridiculous. Ask Sarah, she was there for swimming lessons. Anyway, I get frustrated b/c my kids get so worked up over, let's face it, stupid stuff, and I do not want to get onto them for having feelings, even if I don't like them. But, like I said, something burst. I told my kids to suck it up. Actually, what I said was, "Y'all best get yourselves together now. No talking, take deep breaths, and stop all this fussing mess." I really don't want them to think it isn't okay to get upset. But, guess what, sometimes it ISN'T OKAY. Get over it. I don't care.

They are all in bed now. Claire came down to fuss just once. Oh, but it made me so mad b/c she was fussing w/o talking. THE WORST. Use words, peeps. All my kids do this. They whimper and point and are mute. Hell, no. TALK. There are going to be some new standards around here. If you have a problem, speak it. Or get out of my face. You have ONE chance to obey me, and then it is curtains. No more counting to three. ONE.

Other than that, I'm good.

8 comments:

Kristie said...

I love that summer got the best of you. I HATE SUMMER!! Every day feels like your today to me.

Now I'm off to get ready to go to the temple and hope that I can find an attitude change there. :)

Carrie said...

I completely understand the lack of blogging desire. I think about blogs to do actually but never sit down and do them. Also, your kids sound just like mine some days. They do the too weak to walk thing and the fuss without words crap. That is a big one for me. I honestly am not usually frustrated by the whining if they at least tell me why. If I get nothing from them I tell them to go away from me. They usually start talking them but it all depends on how deep into the whining they get. Anyway, weird how are kids are so similar! - oooo its a Ruggles thing!

Alison said...

Hahaha that is so a Ruggles thing. I honestly STILL do it to Mike sometimes when I am so frustrated that I can't talk (or when I am just messing around with his head...hehehe)

I have noticed that I don't really have anything to blog about lately. My baby blog I update, but not my old one. Oh well.

I never really thought about how rough summers were on parents before until the last couple of years. Poor parents. Come on August, right? ;) love you!

Pame said...

Missed you. Hugs.

Court said...

Coping skills. We all need them. In fact, we could all use some straight talk sometimes in the form of: "Y'all best get yourselves together now. No talking, take deep breaths, and stop all this fussing mess."

Nice work Jen!

Julianna said...

Welcome back! I missed you!

Natalee said...

That so sounds like my kids!!! I hate when they fuss and don't talk or when they talk in a way that no one can understand!!!!!

jamie said...

i think our parenting style is similar in a lot of ways. i told the girls to suck it up the other day, too. it's just too much to handle when it's already too much to handle!