Venting

Feelings are tough. I have them, I can't figure them out. Or, more to the point, make them go away. I learned a friend of mine just lost his brother suddenly, like we lost Craig, and I was overcome with sadness and agitation. Sadness, I get. Agitation - I guess from wanting to help or take action, but there is nothing to do. Just send a note of love and sadness. Just pray a lot for them. I did those things. But I've been sad and agitated since yesterday morning when I found out. I feel like I'm supposed to do something, but there is nothing. And so instead I'm hating feelings.

I am weighed down by science fair. Two kids, both doing PARTNER projects, all due tomorrow.

I am overcome by lethargy about my house, chores, grocery shopping, meal planning and making, cleaning, laundry, showering, everything. I haven't gotten my mail for a week.

I feel bad about myself for no pin-pointable reason.

I have therapy today, don't worry. I am just hoping that writing it down gets some of it out of me and makes room for less blah to come out and play.