Today I left the house during school hours. No offense to my really wonderful friends I spent the time with, but I felt exactly the same as at home. That is solid proof that my current problems are purely mental illness. My kids were better since they had a whole new set of toys to play with, and I honestly appreciate that. Since it ended the second I said it was time to go home.
Aside from wandering from room to room aimlessly, I also feel like I no longer matter in Charlotte's life. Yes, yes, I know. But it still feels that way. So I try to fight that all day. I try to think of things that have value in my life since everything is so bleak. Since I'm failing miserably at all efforts, I will call Shrinky-dink tomorrow and request to go back on Lamictal, the drug that worked and made me gain weight. Additionally, I will require that she prescribe an appetite suppressant so that I am not starving all day and night. We'll see what she says.
Hopefully, this medication thing will get solved because I'm as bored as you are with my blog lately. Remember when I used to be funny?
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Of course I remember when you were funny... Just check out my blog!!!
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Remember, this too shall pass... and blah blah blah...
I have to say... a rounder Jennifer with a smile is a lot more fun than a stick thin Jennifer with a cloud over her head :(
Hang in there, pal. You have a lot of change in your life right now--it's ok to cut yourself some slack. Your bedazzler doc will get your meds worked out soon. Speaking of which, I want some photo evidence of her fantastic sequined laptop STAT.
ps--the tunes on your blog rock. i haven't listened to fat bottom girls by queen for like 15 years. awesome.
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