Ok, so today the Shrinky-Dink changed up my meds to try to combat the side effects I was dealing with. She is weaning me off one drug to put me on another. I took the new amounts this evening, and I ended up almost having a panic attack.
I started to feel nervous, and that feeling grew as the evening progressed. I started feeling anxious and scared. Finally, I dropped my nephew off at Liz's and I couldn't drive myself the EIGHT houses home. My brother-in-law had to do it. I was on the verge of tears and my throat kept almost closing up. That's panic, right?
It felt horrible. I really hope that this doesn't continue too long. I'll call the doctor Monday if it does. Perhaps I'm doing it wrong. We'll find out.
Anyway, I'm trying to blog my way through. The drug I'm stopping is Lamictal. It's one you can't stop cold turkey cuz that does BAD things to your mental state. As I sit here bouncing my knees at record speed just to alleviate some of the jitteriness, I think that anything worse than this is too much to handle. Fear totally sucks. ESPECIALLY when there is nothing fearful happening. It isn't the kind like I'm afraid someone will break in or I'm afraid to go to sleep. I'm just so nervous that I'm afraid. Being home helps, though. I was out picking up Charlotte from a birthday party, and that was the WORST drive home.
I'm keeping a mood chart to track the symptoms so I can show the ol' Shrinky-Dink. She is really very good at her job, so I feel confident calling her to check my symptoms. Plus, she didn't scoff at my concerns about my weight gain (the major side effect that helped me want to change meds). She just believed me and immediately looked for a solution. Then we talked about her spray tan. NOT KIDDING. I'll just think about that - it's funny enough to ease some of the nerves.
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When I went off Lamictal cold turkey it took 3 days for the symptoms to manifest. They were extreme paranoia and anxiety. The kind where you think you might need to be taken somewhere safe cuz you don't trust yourself to be alone with yourself. I'm a little worried your symptoms are manifesting so quickly when you only cut back a small amount. I would let your doctor know. I love you. Pray for your doctor that she can be led by the spirit. I understand about feeling upset about the weight gain and not being able to control it. I know this doesn't help but I think you look great. You're totally curvy!
Amen! You look great! When I got off Depacote I was like that too for a couple days. I tried to be around people all the time because I was afraid to be alone. It gets better. I hope this new medicine has less side-effects for you. Good luck.
By the way, I was fight club too. What's that about? Speaking of which... can you please remove Brad Pitt? It hurts to look at him. I think he's an idiot but he is so friggin beautiful.
We love you and we are praying for you.
Oh ick!!!!!!!
That sounds scary. Hate that you have to go through this :(
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