Hello

The view from my couch.
This is what I've looked at for the past couple of weeks. (Except the folded clothes. That's new. )

Well, I'm not functioning well in the social area still, but I'm going to write this post before I chicken out. Thanks for all the well wishes.

I'm getting the house ready for us to leave for the week, doing laundry, packing. I prefer to do this stuff at night when my kids are asleep, or pretending to be asleep. We leave early early to drive to Oklahoma for a Ruggles Thanksgiving reunion. We like to leave when the kids are sleeping so we can get a good chunk of the trip out of the way before potty breaks and eating breaks and bickering. (Our kids are actually really fantastic travelers as long as it's a trip and not just out and about town.) We are taking one car, and I'm trying to find a way to stuff in everything we need. It's being held at a Girl Scout camp, so we have to bring bedding and towels as well. Plus the pack n' play for Gabe. Plus coats. Then the regular clothes and toiletries and diaper bag stuff. Stuff to do in the car, games to play while we are there...

I've spent most of my time on my couch under a blanket. I've played a lot of Sudoku on the computer. Sarah and Liz have stopped by and gotten me out of the house (thank you). Liz called the shrink and changed my medication and refilled it and picked it up. So you can see how great I was doing. I just changed from the generic back to the name brand, but I think I'm seeing a difference.

I saw "Twilight," of course, and I loved it, of course. So, I am now reading the other three. These are things that show that I'm improving. Because NOTHING is fun or interesting or even tolerable when depressed. Even Sudoku. I just played it out of, I don't know, change of scenery from the couch.

Alisha told me that I fake feeling better very well (thank you, that is a very good compliment). I'm worried that I won't feel any better and won't be able to fake it for Andy's family for a whole week. Looks like lots of time in my room. At least I have the books.

My other worry is that I will miss Black Friday. I'm one of those die-hard crazies, and I love love love it. I usually spend it with my sisters and some friends (Oh, Natalee, I'll miss you!) with a total mission that the military could learn from. Jess and I (sister-in-law) will be hitting it up in Tulsa, and I hope we can get our hands on the ads to formulate our plan of attack. Reminds me: I need to remember to pack scissors, paper and glue to make up our mission documents. She's never done it with us before, and I'm excited to induct her into traditional planning meeting.

I've already moved my calendars to December. I'm through with November. It sucked. I hate at the end of the month how crowded and ratty the calendar looks. I like the beginning of the month when I trick myself into thinking my life is as uncluttered and organized as the calendar looks.