I started a new drug. Actually, more than one, but one that we'll talk about particularly. Here is the most amazing awesome thing:
I HAD NO CROW!
ZERO! ZIPADEEDOODAH!
That has NEVER happened! Literally! Since my very first period I have had killer pms. Killer. The reason they had to start calling it PMDD1.
Now, that said, I have a couple of side effects. BUT THE DRUG IS SOOOOOOOOO GOOD!!!!!! One side effect, and not a deal-breaker at all, is gas. Oh yeah, people. Popcorn popping over here. I can't care. It is totally worth being a social pariah. I hate people anyway, so it works out.
The other side effect I've had before - eating eating eating. In this case, I can't tell when I'm full. I'm just always hungry and thinking about food. I've gained 5 pounds. My clothes I got in December are too tight. I've gone up a jean size (and they are too tight, too, but they were $25 and quite possibly cut small.) So, I stop eating either when the food starts coming back up or when I gauge the food mentally. "Normally, a four egg omelet fills people up, so I have to stop there." I've had TWO people ask me if I'm pregnant. Yep. No need to respond to this part; I'm on a happy pill. So, what to do??
Start a new drug, of course. I started yet another drug to counter the eating disorder from this drug. Plus it has the added benefit of making soda taste nasty, so that helps a healthy lifestyle.
Here's the thing. The thing about it is, I'm not pleased about being on a bunch of drugs. I don't like it. I feel like there's got to be a better way. But I've never felt better (or chubbier) than this. I don't want to screw that up. Well, I'd be happy to screw up chubbier, but you know what I mean. Lifestyle changes, whatev. Plus, seasonal allergy pill. BOOOOOOOOOO. I just feel a little weird about it. I'm exploring my options. Well, option. Which actually is a healthier lifestyle. Diet has a huge impact on depression; so everybody will the willpower into me to make the drastic changes required. Starting tomorrow. Kidding! Starting next week. Really. I can't start this week b/c I'm not done reading the book.
Pre-Menstrual Dysphoric Disorder. Dysphoria is defined as "An emotional state characterized by anxiety, depression, or unease." Basically the opposite of euphoria. As opposed to the traditional Pre-Menstrual Syndrome. Syndrome is defined as "A complex of symptoms indicating the existence of an undesirable condition or quality." Totally hand-picked the definition out of a list, but at least it was on the list.
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Wow... so many changes. I hope the new drug is helpful for you and that folks will get some manners and stop asking stupid questions. You already know my thoughts on people asking about pregnancy. No, no, and again, no.
I support you and love you.
What book are you reading?
The book - "Ultraprevention." This really incredible lady recommended it to me.
I've recently discovered that holding a baby is a GREAT cover for gas. When you feel a bout coming on, grab a baby and people will actually CHEER when they hear any suspicious sound. Good luck with your new drug!
LOL Jenae
Well I can offer nothing but congratulations on your new found happiness since I have no advice on how to avoid those kind of pills. I do have some advice if you want to try getting off the seasonal allergy pill (which incidentally, being on Allegra gave me PMDD as a teenager). Anyhow, when I started doing sinus rinses twice a day during high pollen times, I stopped having to take Allergy meds. Ever. I have taken nary a Claritin for 2 1/2 years. Worth a try... a kit for the sinus rinse is $10 at Walmart.
Good luck!
not knowing when to stop eating would drive me crazy!! i understand what you mean about not wanting to be on too many pills--one would think there is a better way. best of luck at getting your body figured out.
Not knowing when to stop eating is a side effect? Geez, I'm not on any medicine and I NEVER know when to stop eating... in case you couldn't tell! I am glad you are feeling good - hope it stays that way! Love ya!
Thanks for the allergy advice, Alisha. I'm gonna check it out.
I remember when I started that pill and soda tasted bad. I was so excited. But then I pushed through and drank it anyway and now I am used to the taste and love it. Don't do that. You look slammin' in those $25 jeans.
I am so thrilled that this medicine is working!!! Gary's gained weight since being on meds. It has bothered him but he's happy so our motto is "better fat and happy then thin and miserable!" Also he wants to know what your not eating pill is so he can try it.
Also, people should never never ask a woman if she is pregnant, not unless she is actually in active labor about to push out a baby!
I'm just glad to have you back! Missed your posts this past month.
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