I feel like a famous person this week because I am getting together with the girls 5 out of 7 nights! Woo hoo! And, as a testament to my mental health, I'm not freaking out about the number of social engagements!
Sunday and Tuesday were the only nights this week at home. My girls started crying when they overheard me telling Andy I'd be out so much. Poor babies - most of the time they'll be in bed already when I leave, but they like to maintain total emotional and physical control over their mom ;-)
I feel really great. However, I was backreading some parts of my blog yesterday, and I'm afraid that the majority of the humor of this blog will disappear with me being mentally well. Sad but true that bipolar creates mounds of comic material. Well, mostly in retrospect for me, I guess. Still, reading some of my posts when I was particularly struggling is so weird. I remember it, and yet it doesn't seem like my life was ever like that. It seems ages ago instead of only 3 months. I feel so lucky.
I told my kids they had to nap after lunch b/c they were being so fussy, but now they are playing so sweetly together that I don't want to bust it up. I think we'll go to the library first. Wait, no. I love the library without my kids. SO SAD, I know, but they are hard to keep together there, and I can't ever go the the grownup books without a lot of trouble. Plan B - I'll put some things on the library hold list, and when they come in, we'll go. Yeah.
HONESTLY - it's like I don't know what to say these days! Who am I when I'm not crazy?! What do I write about?! Usually it's me blaring on about not being able to handle regular life. Now, I'm handling it. And it is too boring to write about! Are my days of blogging coming to a close? It seems I really did use it as a coping mechanism. I certainly don't use it to keep people updated about my kids and family and such. Yikes. Welp, I guess we'll just all find out together. I'm out, y'all.
2 comments:
I'm happy that your social engagements are not causing you anxiety. And I love that our presidency meeting counts as a GNO.
And another thing, keep writing. Even if you don't think it's hilarious, we all love hearing from you. :)
What a funny dilemma?! Why do you think I rely on pictures and videos so much on my blog?? It's because if I didn't have those things and if I just wrote about my life, it would be an endless description of not wanting to pick up the toys again and going out with the missionaries... What's funny about that??
I love that you are noticing so much change in yourself. It may take a while to get used to not getting manic, but there seem to be enough things you enjoy to keep you occupied.
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