Take a sleeping pill. Whilst (that's twice this week with the word "whilst") I was sleeping on the couch this morning, Gabe dumped the Rice Krispies into a tupperware bowl and sat around on the floor eating it with his fingers. All those d--- little Krispies!!
I am up all night. Well, not all night. I can't fall asleep before 2 am, and then I am unconscious all morning. And I don't nap. I just try to get through the day all yawning and stumbling around, but then nine o'clock steps in and DING! Awake.
I had the day where I hate being mentally ill so so bad. I was angry. I felt sorry for myself. I wasn't handling things well. That's how Gabe made his way halfway up the stairs with a popsicle before I caught him. Time out. And how he chucked something across the room at Claire and busted her lip. Time out. And how, I just realized, I am wearing the same thing I put on after church on Sunday. What day is it? Hmm - that is three days. I'm planning on sleeping in it, so we might as well just count four.
I am just going to list the successful things of the day to make myself feel better:
1. I made dinner.
2. Harris did all his homework, and Charlotte did a full week's worth this afternoon.
Well, that didn't take long.
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Apparently I need one of those. Hope it worked.
What kind is it? I finally started taking sleeping pills after 11 years of insomnia and they totally transformed my life. I sleep at night and am awake during the day!!!
I am sorry you have been struggling lately. I've been struggling myself. You are awesome!!! So thankful you are my friend.
I hope your sleeping pill worked! I hate when I am really tired, and then at about 10:00 I wake up and can't sleep for hours. It's a vicious cycle to be in.
Hey, you made dinner last night. That's a big one! I left the house before my boys got home from school, so they probably had cereal for dinner.
I'm sorry you've had a rough week. Sleep deprivation really takes a toll. Good work on making dinner.
I'm so sorry that sleep has been eluding you.. it does stink to suffer with sleep deprivation. I hope your sleeping pill helped you to get some rest. I truly believe that focusing on the positive and successful things really does help even if it didn't take long to type them :) congratulations on your successess!
I am so sorry you're not getting much sleep! But I'm way impressed with what you DID do! For all of you that can get a child to do homework, you are amazing...and I will be sending Kayla to you. I hated doing homework, and the thought of it still makes me sick. So to have homework done, and dinner made is amazing to me!
sweet dreams!
I think your successful things should be separated out into each piece of homework that each child did. Then it would be a LONG list! Plus Harris and Charlotte should at least each get their own number! Good luck with the sleeping pills! i hope it works out for you! I realized recently that I've been wanting to get assistance for my mental health and seriously I've been thinking about it all wrong. I didn't consciously realize i thought this way, but I want them to tell me what is wrong and then fix it, the same way you would if you needed antibiotics. Take them and then everything will be better and suddenly I realized that is not going to happen!! Quite the realization, I know!
I wish I could come over for help with my homework.
Geoff has started to work nights. No matter how tired I am, it's very hard to fall asleep and stay asleep. the weather is also funky and we don't have the heat on, so it's cold when I go to bed and I DIE from heat exhaustion. Solution: I wear a shirt and no pants and a tylenol pm... scandalous, I know.
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