Monday, April 6, 2009

New post... new post...

I got nothin'. The behind-us neighbors gave us a swingset and the kids are redonkulous over it. On a personal note, I woke up mad and stayed mad all day. Sorry, Book Club. I don't know about the rest of you, but April is always a crazy-busy month for me. So, I tend to be uptight. Don't get me wrong - I am excited about the stuff going on. I just don't have the mental coping skills to get through it without personal anxst. When the anxst become a word?

Let's see... Oh! I'm done hating my face. Thanks, Rachel. It is what it is, and I'll just like the parts I like. Eyes, lips, smile, eyebrows. While we are at it, ankles, sway back, fat hands (they look like my grandmother's). I don't want to hear it from any of you; everyone is allowed a self-image. I'm kinda snobby about mine being poor. However, I'm letting it go. I'm accepting it. Here's something weird: I am more comfortable in a bathing suit than in clothes. I told you - weird. I owned that when I was pregnant and never looked back. You can't hide anything in a swimsuit, so who cares? But in clothes, it is assumed that you tried to look presentable, and, well, if this is all I came up with, it's pitiful. I haven't accepted the body, but I've accepted the face. We are moving on - no comments, please.

Here's another thing. I like having more friends. I didn't think I would ever be able to handle it, but it seems to be working out. Nobody has yet run screaming down the hall when they see me coming. I chalk it up to the blog. Go figure. I am also (slowly) opening my home to "outsiders." That's all of y'all, in case you are wondering. When I start to freak out about it, I think about the night of my birthday when some gals came over. It was fun and relaxed (for me, anyway), so that helps.

Anything else?

I just sat here for 5 solid minutes after typing that last sentence. I didn't come up with anything.

Sarah says that my blog needs more pictures, so here you go:

16 comments:

Natalee said...

I think the reasoon you feel so comfortable in a swim suit is because you are so honest. You don't hide anything by nature. There is nothing fake about you and you don't keep up any false pretenses. This is why people feel comfortable around you and like you. You make them feel like they don't have to hide anything either. You are great.

I love your picture.

Carrie said...

I agree with Natalee! When I first met you I felt like I loved you forever! It was weird, but so true!

I need to get good at opening my home to people. That is my ideal state where I have lots of people coming and going - but I gotta get to the point where I let them in! =o)

Sarah said...

I take it back.

Jennifer said...

Told you so.

Lori Hurst said...

NICE photo! I enjoyed your post!

Alison said...

I love you so much! Your picture is priceless. And I better not be a stranger in your home. I'm family :D

Laura said...

I am glad to be one of the "outsiders" who has now been a guest in your home twice! I had a great time both times.

Love the photo. I think you should include at least one every post! (And Sarah hasn't even posted in almost 2 weeks, so she has no room to talk!)

Ash Kelley said...

nice picture jen!

Rachel Means said...

Wow. I really don't haven't anything else to say...

Alisha said...

You're a pretty girl Jennifer Ruggles. That picture, however... Woah. :)

Shel said...

Jen, you are such a great friend... I love being around you and I enjoy reading your blog.. I could go on and on, but you would be like "Shel stop being all cheesy." so I'll keep it simple and to the point... you ROCK!

Thanks for opening up your house so much lately.. it's been fun!

Nice Picture ;)

Debbie and Boys said...

Diddo to all comments about how much you're instantly liked. Your face is one of the very few I distinctly remember on my first Sunday here. However, not for reasons you're thinking. I have a good sense of who is "real" and you immediately struck me as that. In my book, real is everything...I hate playing pretend. If you click to my blogs link of amber and mark you'll find a post about "CLAIREify".

michelle said...

Who couldn't love a face like that?!

Melanie said...

I agree with Alisha! You are very pretty, BUUUT that photo doesn't show your prettiness as much! It DOES however show your funny personality.

Court said...

I love you Jen. Kudos to you for coming to terms with all of your glorious self!

Jenae said...

You are amazing and funny. And your face is precious! I wish I was comfortable in bathing suits. I get what you mean, though. I'm more comfortable in workout clothes with no makeup cuz then people know I didn't try. When I'm all dressed up on Sunday EVERYONE knows I tried and it makes me feel self-conscious!

P.S. I feel so special since I have been in your house!